Well now see, I told you there was nothing to worry about.
The baby is there, heart beating away, and seems to be doing just fine. We could see his little arms flailing about. My husband the martial arts expert swears he is making a knifehand strike.
I am 9 weeks and 5 days, and the baby is measuring 10 weeks. So he is accelerated already.
And photogenic. The nurse practitioner even said so. (I'm sorry I can't include pics... we don't have the necessary equipment, and I don't have the necessary tech savvy.)
So I think I will be taking a break from blogging. I realize this may make me the record holder of "Shortest-Lived Infertility Blog Ever", but I have good reasons:
1. I am hoping that things will be terribly boring from here on out. I hope there is not much to write about. If I were an artist (and I am SO not), I think I would be one of those artists whose inspiration only emerges when they are feeling tortured and depressed. I'm afraid that now all my posts would be full of exclamation points and words like "cute" and "awesome". I wouldn't want to put you through that.
2. Blogging has served it's purpose. Just writing and venting was incredibly therapeutic for me, and got me through some really difficult moments. I was able to keep my friends and family informed on all the medical updates as well as let them in on some of the thoughts and feelings that can be hard for me to express in person. But, the best part of all, and the most unexpected part, was the sisterhood and friendship that's been cultivated with all my fellow infertility bloggers. I just can't thank you enough for your support, encouragement, and empathy. You would really read the posts, and read them carefully, not just for context but for meaning and feeling, like you were searching to know and understand me. I know this from your comments and your blogs. For example, I can't tell you how much it meant to me to come home to find that Melissa left a comment on my last post saying that she can't wait to hear how things went today. She remembered that my ultrasound was today. And THAT, my friends, is "awesome!". And I see that kind of thoughtfulness happening everywhere, all the time, in the infertility blogging world.
Which brings me to number 3...
3. I feel so incredibly lucky. And I know that many of my sisters are still in the trenches still waiting for their luck to change. I'd like to spend my "computer time" reading blogs and commenting and trying to continue to offer support to all of them. I hope that it will be okay for me to do that even if I don't have my own blog.
If you are on my blogroll, I will continue to check in on you frequently. If you are not on my blogroll (perhaps you commented and my lazy self never got around to putting you on or maybe you've been lurking but never commented), please feel free to comment on this post so I will know to stop by your post and keep up on how you are doing.
Disclaimer: I reserve the right to change my mind and return to blogging at any time.